For hope and healing after abortion

My Decision

My Decision was not an easy one. I never expected that I, of all people, would be in this situation. None of us do.

I learned that every Woman has a different story.

I learned that there are 4 people who I needed to say sorry to:
1. God
2. The Baby who wasn’t
3. The Man who didn’t have a choice
4. and Myself

And I learned that I could be forgiven. This is the greatest gift that I have ever received, thanks to my friend, Rachel.

If it weren’t for Project Rachel, I would still be crying, daily. My Decision was the first thought that entered my head when I would wake in the morning. My Decision reminded me that although I could move through my daily routine, I was not allowed to enjoy funny movies or special moments with my family. My Decision would literally stop me mid-laughter. I did not deserve to laugh. I had committed an unforgivable act.

Today, thanks to Project Rachel, I am a different person. To experience the power of forgiveness is something that I cannot put into words. I actually feel lighter. My shoulders are not hanging so low. The power of forgiveness is life altering. I will always regret my decision, and I will continue to carry my quiet secret with me. It has become a part of who I am, but it no longer defines who I am. Today, I am a wife, mother, and a 3rd year law student. I plan to spend my legal career working with children, and giving back to Project Rachel, by helping women who are silently suffering with their Decision. This is a much bigger issue than any person on this earth would ever imagine. I recently learned that 43% of women of child-bearing age have had an abortion…our mothers, our sisters, our girlfriends.

My hope is that instead of holding up horrible posters and signs, that we instead toss her a rose, and remind her that God loves her.

My hope is that every woman realizes that she does not have to carry the pain and shame alone throughout the rest of her life.

My hope is that Project Rachel is able to reach out to all women who are suffering from an abortion.